I did not realise, but it turns out at times I like to friends in a way that resembles Rogerian psychotherapy. I like to talk out loud and with the help of my friends providing perspectives, help me sort through issues or problems that have been bothering me. The following is a transcript of my conversation with the ELIZA bot.
How do you do. Please state your problem.
>> I don’t know how to feel.
Don’t you really know what to feel ?
>> I don’t know how to feel correctly.
Why don’t you know what to feel correctly ?
>> Perhaps because I want to be like others, and don’t want to be alone.
In what way ?
>> I want things to be simple and just want to be happy.
What would it mean to you if you got things to be simple and just want to be happy ?
>> I don’t know, there are two possibilities. One would be that I would find myself, the other would be that I would become unsatisfied.
Do you wish to be able to know ?
You seem to be quite positive.
>> Indeed, truth shall see us free.
In some ways, I have found it vastly beneficial, in other ways, it’s a startling realisation that I’ve been “using” my friends (and helping friends in similar fashion, albeit I’m much too opinionated to be non-directive and person-centred, something I should try better I think). So how should I reconcile these realisations? Well, truth shall set us free. I should establish a communication with people knowing that such process is taking place, it is therapeutic, but it is also a task the other side may not enjoy (much like a back rub!). When I understand myself better, hopefully I can control what I do.